Another reason, though, is that my son has had some medical problems in the last month. About a month ago, I carelessly fed him a cookie that (unknown to me) contained nuts. He took one small bite, and then spit it out, but he still had an allergic reaction. He threw up and the inside of his mouth swelled up. We are so lucky to live near one of the best children's hospitals in the country, if not the world. He was fine, but since this was his first anaphylactic reaction, it was really scary for all of us.
Even though I work on recipes that are safe for people with food allergies most days, that doesn't mean that I couldn't get a little lax. Since the day we found out that our son had food allergies (when he was under a year old), we have been working toward the day when he might outgrow them. We have protected him by fiercely avoiding contact with his allergens.
But ... he had seemed so much better. His numbers had come down. Other allergy moms who I know weren't as strict as we were. I certainly would never intentionally expose him to an allergen, but I also let my guard down a little bit. And we had a rude awakening to the realities of living with food allergy. It is a serious business.
A month later, we were back at the emergency room. This time, it was for an asthma attack. It took several days to get his oxygen levels under control. It was very scary. Luckily, he's now doing a lot better, and back to his soccer-loving, brother-wrestling, baseball-playing ways.
The positive thing that I take from this (because I'm always looking for the upside!) is the reminder about what's really important in my life. It's easy to get lost in the day-to-day routine, and although I always know that I love my kids, I really remember now that I LOVE MY KIDS! Hopefully, this feeling will last for a while. Even when they're bickering and I'm tired, or even when the living room floor is covered in Legos and little cars.
It is my hope that our Welcoming Kitchen recipes will be safe for all of our guests to enjoy, but that some day we won't need special protections for my son, because he will have outgrown his allergies. Until then, though, I'll keep up my guard and get back into Mama Bear mode to keep him safe.
So, remember, even if you're careful, accidents can happen, so it's so important to stay aware. (I will, too.)
I will have a post on a different take on gluten-free pasta in the next couple of days.